Focusing on the positive:
1. BOTH of my "home" states passed gay marriage rights. Go Maryland and Washington!
2. Washington (and Colorado, but I'm focusing on Washington because I have ties there) passed recreational use of marijuana. Yes, I'm okay with this. I think it should be legal everywhere. I know plenty of people who use marijuana who lead functional lives, just like many people who drink are able to lead functional lives. There isn't much difference in my mind.
3. Tobin and Darby have been napping in the same room, finally. Last night he slept in there overnight. He did wake up, but I was able to get him his bottle without Darby even flinching. Yay! You have no idea how exciting this is.
4. I'm doing pretty well at keeping up with NaNoWriMo. I don't get much writing done on the weekends so I have to get the bulk of my word count in on weekdays plus, I lost Monday this week. Overall I feel like I'm doing a good job of making up for the lost time, though, so I'm feeling good about it. My goal this year was not to turn out earth-shattering work, but to just get to 50,000 words. I actually feel as though I'm going to accomplish it this time!
Happy Hump Day, y'all!
Wednesday, November 7, 2012
Tuesday, November 6, 2012
Today is the day that we take things into our own hands.
I'm always so glad when this day comes because after tonight, even though people will continue to bitch no matter what happens, it is over.
Facebook is unbearable, Twitter is unbearable, all of the people who talk about what bullies "the other side" are while bullying people who believe in "the other side" are unbearable - and yeah, this means you too, non-Republicans...
I don't care who you vote for - believe it or not there are actually people out here who believe that you are entitled to your opinion, no matter what, not just as long as your opinion doesn't get in the way of mine.
But whatever you do, please, please, please just get out there and vote!
May the best puppet win!
I'm always so glad when this day comes because after tonight, even though people will continue to bitch no matter what happens, it is over.
Facebook is unbearable, Twitter is unbearable, all of the people who talk about what bullies "the other side" are while bullying people who believe in "the other side" are unbearable - and yeah, this means you too, non-Republicans...
I don't care who you vote for - believe it or not there are actually people out here who believe that you are entitled to your opinion, no matter what, not just as long as your opinion doesn't get in the way of mine.
But whatever you do, please, please, please just get out there and vote!
May the best puppet win!
Monday, November 5, 2012
Before I get into my real post I have to take a moment to pat myself on the back. I truly thought that I would have failed at NaBloPoMo by now - yes, 5 days in.
I may not be posting stellar, mind-blowing things, but I have posted! I call that a win (so far).
I'd also like to take a moment to inform you that, if you are reading here, you're going to be helping me work through a lot of shit right now. I apologize in advance, but that is just where I'm at these days. I am in such a weird (but good) place, I feel everything evolving and changing around and within me. I'll try not to get too deep, but I'm definitely in a place of change right now - big change - and the results of that are a lot of over-analysis and deep thoughts.
Okay, on to my actual post:
So, I just got back from a minor surgical procedure. It was nothing big, but I'm feeling a little wiped out from the anesthesia. Thankfully the husband has taken the kids out and about so that I can have some peace (and complete my post for today, and catch up on my NaNoWriMo word count).
Long story short, I've had some abnormal cell activity in my cervix and previous procedures didn't nix the issue so they went in and took a larger area in hopes of getting rid of all the nasty (but NOT cancerous, let me make that clear) cells. I was in and out and, aside from some minor cramping going on, I feel pretty good.
Which brings me to the "deep issue" that this whole experience has brought up in me: Friendships
When do you decide that a friendship is tipping toward toxic? What do you do about that? Especially when the person is not necessarily someone you want to eject from your life, but it has just become taxing carrying on a friendship because of their level of self-centeredness. (and please - we are ALL self-centered, to a point, these days, we live in the "me, me me" era - some people are just worse than others. That goes for being judgmental too, but that is another post entirely)
You read these articles about "toxic friendships" and one things that always comes up is the idea that they trivialize everything going on in your life, but expect you to come running when they have a hangnail. That's kind of where I'm at with this particular situation.
I am totally not the kind of person who needs people to "ooh" and "ahhh" over every little thing that goes on in my life. In fact, I'm the total opposite. I'm happy to let most things go under the radar, probably to a fault. And while this whole situation wasn't that big of a deal, there are some psychological aspects that I've been dealing with. I know that everything is likely to be fine, but that is what they've been telling me at each turn. "We need to do this, don't worry, it usually comes back as nothing." Just to get the call that says, "Well... We're going to have to have you come in for [this procedure], don't worry, it will likely come back as nothing." Repeat.
That wears on you a bit. At least it wore on me, and is actually still wearing on me to a point because here I sit, yet again, waiting for biopsy results that "are likely nothing". I've heard that one before - a few times now.
Basically, over the last couple of months there have been a couple of times that I've just needed to talk this out, just to get my head clear, only to be met with "Yeah, I'm not sure what that is, I've never done it, but its common. So when I was out last night here's all the drama that I had to deal with..." and on and on.
I don't know. I'm kind of over certain kinds of relationships these days. One-sided relationships are at the top of the list. I don't even have any fancy way to wrap this up, and in fact, probably have a lot more to say on this subject, but I'm feeling as though it is time to lay down.
I hope this post isn't too all over the place, ha! I'll be back tomorrow, now it is time to sleep.
Happy Monday, y'all!
I may not be posting stellar, mind-blowing things, but I have posted! I call that a win (so far).
I'd also like to take a moment to inform you that, if you are reading here, you're going to be helping me work through a lot of shit right now. I apologize in advance, but that is just where I'm at these days. I am in such a weird (but good) place, I feel everything evolving and changing around and within me. I'll try not to get too deep, but I'm definitely in a place of change right now - big change - and the results of that are a lot of over-analysis and deep thoughts.
Okay, on to my actual post:
So, I just got back from a minor surgical procedure. It was nothing big, but I'm feeling a little wiped out from the anesthesia. Thankfully the husband has taken the kids out and about so that I can have some peace (and complete my post for today, and catch up on my NaNoWriMo word count).
Long story short, I've had some abnormal cell activity in my cervix and previous procedures didn't nix the issue so they went in and took a larger area in hopes of getting rid of all the nasty (but NOT cancerous, let me make that clear) cells. I was in and out and, aside from some minor cramping going on, I feel pretty good.
Which brings me to the "deep issue" that this whole experience has brought up in me: Friendships
When do you decide that a friendship is tipping toward toxic? What do you do about that? Especially when the person is not necessarily someone you want to eject from your life, but it has just become taxing carrying on a friendship because of their level of self-centeredness. (and please - we are ALL self-centered, to a point, these days, we live in the "me, me me" era - some people are just worse than others. That goes for being judgmental too, but that is another post entirely)
You read these articles about "toxic friendships" and one things that always comes up is the idea that they trivialize everything going on in your life, but expect you to come running when they have a hangnail. That's kind of where I'm at with this particular situation.
I am totally not the kind of person who needs people to "ooh" and "ahhh" over every little thing that goes on in my life. In fact, I'm the total opposite. I'm happy to let most things go under the radar, probably to a fault. And while this whole situation wasn't that big of a deal, there are some psychological aspects that I've been dealing with. I know that everything is likely to be fine, but that is what they've been telling me at each turn. "We need to do this, don't worry, it usually comes back as nothing." Just to get the call that says, "Well... We're going to have to have you come in for [this procedure], don't worry, it will likely come back as nothing." Repeat.
That wears on you a bit. At least it wore on me, and is actually still wearing on me to a point because here I sit, yet again, waiting for biopsy results that "are likely nothing". I've heard that one before - a few times now.
Basically, over the last couple of months there have been a couple of times that I've just needed to talk this out, just to get my head clear, only to be met with "Yeah, I'm not sure what that is, I've never done it, but its common. So when I was out last night here's all the drama that I had to deal with..." and on and on.
I don't know. I'm kind of over certain kinds of relationships these days. One-sided relationships are at the top of the list. I don't even have any fancy way to wrap this up, and in fact, probably have a lot more to say on this subject, but I'm feeling as though it is time to lay down.
I hope this post isn't too all over the place, ha! I'll be back tomorrow, now it is time to sleep.
Happy Monday, y'all!
Sunday, November 4, 2012
Saturday, November 3, 2012
Friday, November 2, 2012
In honor of Thanksgiving Month I am going to do a weekly installment of "5 Things I am Thankful For".
The top 5 for this week are:
1. The two friends that I have who own smart phones and who do not keep them in front of their faces the entire time we are out. These two people have made it to the top of my favorite people list because we can actually meet out and 99.9% of the time I don't even see their phones.
The advent of the smart phone has made me want to stop socializing with most people. I don't want to hang out with you while you stare at your phone.
2. You may have heard that there was a hurricane this week. I am thankful that our area went largely unscathed (compared to up north) and my power was back up the next day. There are many who were not so fortunate.
3. Great neighbors who like to get together around the fire pit at night and drink wine. It is always a good time.
4. Neighbors who have children in the Girl Scouts. My cupboard is stocked up with all sorts of Girl Scout cookie goodness.
5. Craigslist. I got an elliptical for $80!
That is it for this Friday! On to NaNoWriMo!
The top 5 for this week are:
1. The two friends that I have who own smart phones and who do not keep them in front of their faces the entire time we are out. These two people have made it to the top of my favorite people list because we can actually meet out and 99.9% of the time I don't even see their phones.
The advent of the smart phone has made me want to stop socializing with most people. I don't want to hang out with you while you stare at your phone.
2. You may have heard that there was a hurricane this week. I am thankful that our area went largely unscathed (compared to up north) and my power was back up the next day. There are many who were not so fortunate.
3. Great neighbors who like to get together around the fire pit at night and drink wine. It is always a good time.
4. Neighbors who have children in the Girl Scouts. My cupboard is stocked up with all sorts of Girl Scout cookie goodness.
5. Craigslist. I got an elliptical for $80!
That is it for this Friday! On to NaNoWriMo!
Thursday, November 1, 2012
Considering that I haven't blogged in an age, or really written anything at all, I'm curious to know what you think my chances are of completing both NaBloPoMo AND NaNoWriMo this year. Because I am attempting both.
You can laugh, it's okay. I'm laughing too, but I'm determined to give it a go.
I'm off to a good start with NaNoWriMo. The word count goal is 1667 per day. I passed that this morning and I'm still rolling. It's not earth-shattering work, but it is work, and it is getting me back into the groove. NaBloPoMo is probably going to be the more difficult challenge.
So with this brilliant and insightful post, I kick off NaBloPoMo. Let us hope this post is not the gauge by which we will measure the momentum for the rest of the month.
Oh, November, I love to hate you.
You can laugh, it's okay. I'm laughing too, but I'm determined to give it a go.
I'm off to a good start with NaNoWriMo. The word count goal is 1667 per day. I passed that this morning and I'm still rolling. It's not earth-shattering work, but it is work, and it is getting me back into the groove. NaBloPoMo is probably going to be the more difficult challenge.
So with this brilliant and insightful post, I kick off NaBloPoMo. Let us hope this post is not the gauge by which we will measure the momentum for the rest of the month.
Oh, November, I love to hate you.
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